No one will love you...

9:02pm: wow...
I came across this again and was looking at some of my old posts...I was seriously emo or something, damn...

8:01pm: havent been here in a ling ass time
life sucks and if ur lucky u die...if ur not u get cancer and go though kemo lose ur hair become frail and weak beat it into remission and start being healthy again then it comes back and then maybe u die...

10:48am: PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3:02am: maynard...
Maynard and tool have come out big again with their new CD 10,000 days. I can't get enough of it and I'm sure if you’re a Tool fan you will feel the same way. I just hope they come around for another U.S. tour, stupid lame ass little venue.

O yeah I'm 21 now and yes it's everything I hoped for...even though I haven't hit up the east side yet. But the lake front is good mainly because it's within walking distance to my house.

School is going to limit my bar time well drinking time in general since I put off everything till the last minute. so in the next two weeks i have two 5 page papers which i haven’t even started, also I have three one pagers a 4-6 pager and a dumb ass project in econ all culminating on Monday. All that work for only 100 points...seems a little excessive to me but w/e I don’t have a teaching degree so who am I to criticize.

8:21am: wow...
life is very confusing...well not really life but people in ur life. that is all

12:40am: FREAKIN' SWEET!!!!
not much to report here cept an awsome time in oshvegas involveing an old friend a bottle of jager and a case of beer...that combo makes for good times :)

12:29am: Der-a-lick my balls!!!!!!!!
i really need a job where the hours are set like 8-5 or something cuz these 12-10s and 12-9s lick my balls. working 12 to 10 followed by a 7 to 4 sux. BLAHHH!!!!!!!!!!

9:34pm: i need a back rub :(
4 1/2 hours of sleep followed by 11 1/2 hours of work, its not as fun as u might think...

11:09pm: use ur imagination
insert semi meaningful words about how depressing life can be especially mine

4:27pm: You my friend eat donkey dick...thats right im talking to u!

12:16pm: FIRST SATURDAY OFF I DIDNT ASK FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOIN TO THE SHRINE GAME...YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9:41pm: so yeah i get off work and call a bunch of people to find somethin to do...and o just about everyone is at summerfest having a grand ol' time, but not me...thank you Menard INC.

6:56pm: what up, what up in the hizzzooouuussseeee?!?!?!?!?
Shit...thats whats up in the hizzouse. work to live of live to work. it seems that i live to work for now im there like almost every day never have a weekend or friday off unless i ask a month ahead of time. Not gonna lie...I'm not liking it. shitty hours and no weekends have made me hate work. ah whatever im sure everyones got better things to do then rerad about my plight.

3:25pm: Holy shit
so yeah...i didnt go to work today. some crazy shit happened. i'm looking for another job. thats all.

10:35pm: Im just a face in the crowd, Nothing to worry about, Not even tryin' to stand out...
Now I just stare into the sun
And I see everything I've done
I think I could've been someone
But I cannot stop what has begun
When everything is said and done
And there is nowhere left to run
I think I could have been someone
Now I just stare into the sun

being lazy song lyrics will suffice...With Teeth is an awesome CD...I Love NIN!!!!!!!

1:11am: Meet me in outer space...
Say what you will, say what you mean, You could never offend your dirty words come out clean

5:26am: this fucking sux...
yeah i just woke up and can't fall asleep. u know why that is? oh because i'm an over analyzing piece of shit...it's great that i can't fall back asleep, you know since i dont work till 12. Whatever though enough ranting i'm gonna go wallow in my own confused insecure delusions...hope everyone else is having a better day than me. :(

8:22pm: ( A Fool in The Rain... )

6:52pm: I AM: doin this thing
I WANT: to be loved
I HAVE: shoes on
I WISH: i didnt have to worry about money
I HATE: feeling down
I FEAR: being old and lonely
I HEAR: the tv
I WONDER: if ill ever get over someone
I REGRET:not going to class when i was in school
I LOVE: my new 15's(subs)
I ACHE: back and neck
I ALWAYS: work
I AM NOT: hostile(most of the time)
I DANCE: in my car if that counts
I SING: mostly in my car
I CRY: every now and again
I AM NOT ALWAYS: happy
I WRITE: when im sad
I WIN: nothing
I LOSE: everything
I CONFUSE: no one?
I NEED: to feel better
I SHOULD: try and be happy
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YES or NO:
YOU KEEP A DIARY: no
LIKE TO COOK: yes
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: no someone know all my secrets
YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: Of coarse

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: no
WANT CHILDREN:YES
GET MOTION SICKNESS: No
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: No
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: sometimes
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: no i love them
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CURRENT:
HAIR COLOR: brown
EYE COLOR: brown
HEIGHT: 6'4"
BIRTHPLACE: St. Francis Hospital
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FAVORITE:
NUMBER: 77
COLOR: Black
DAY: saturday
MONTH: september
SONG: right now...i miss you-Incubs
FOOD: Mashed Potatoes and steak
SEASON: Spring/Fall
SPORT: wrestleing/football
DRINK: jager bombs

PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: Both
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Chocolate milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE:?
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: Vanilla

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IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? sadly yes
HELPED SOMEONE? maybe
BOUGHT SOMETHING? new shoes
GOTTEN SICK? kinda
GONE TO THE MOVIES? Nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? nope
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? no :(
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: No
TALKED TO AN EX? Yes
MISSED AN EX? yes
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? This one
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yeah
MISSED SOMEONE? Yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? probably
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no

3:19pm: Not everyone one is that fucked up and cold...
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12:37am: Blah Blah Blah ba blah blah no one cares what i have to say ne way...
Pardon me while i burn...

10:21pm: Blah Blah Blah Blah Balhajskhcjabs;chnswdkichs;ln cn c........
Work was gay...two hours of sleep...7:30 tomarrow work again...gotta sleep...night all
( BENEATH A BLACK SKY!!!!!!!!!! )

10:24pm: blah
Every time we touch we get closer to heaven
And at every sunrise our sins are forgiven
You on my skin this must be the end
The only way you can love me ist to hurt me again
And again


Only inside I'm free
I'm tired of waiting
You've got to let me dream
Inside Baby
I'm not afraid to feel
I want your to love me
Cause you are the one

4:58pm: so yeah this has been by far the best weekend ever...not...it's actually been the worst ever. i really need a vacation from this bullshit three ring circus sideshow. my heart broke once again and on top of that i spent the whole fucking night in county jail for minor consumption. yeah it was the worst experience of my life i could never last if i had to go to jail for real id flip. i cant take being locked up it drives me nuts.

Nothing is static everything is falling apart...that pretty much sums up my thoughts on life right now. i dont think im very good at this game called life...i wish i could just throw my hands up in surrender and just say fuck it. there's always that part of me that says keep on keepin on so i guess thats what im gonna do keep on keepin on...pain is only temporary...i hope :/

LEARN TO FUCKING SWIM!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: gloomy

(1 Lost Soul | Some Say The End Is Near)

30th April 2005

6:40pm: Ow thats it ow...:(

Current Mood: surprised

(Some Say The End Is Near)

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